I know it’s been a while! But…for good reason. I always want my posts to be intentional, have substance, and to never post just for the sake of posting. That, plus trying to maintain my sanity with school, having a life, Own Your Peach, work, interning, etc…. things have been HECTIC. But, I have no complaints!
Anywhoo, I prayed for some inspiration about what my next dose of spiritual food for the soul should be. So, I have returned with something that has been on my heart for the last couple of weeks.
Have you ever thought to yourself, ‘Am I really worthy of all this?! I have sooo many flaws!’ or what about this one, ‘This is too good to be true…so I won’t even enjoy it.’ Or one of my favorites, ‘I’m just going to sabotage or end this because it’s not going to work out the way I want it to anyway.’ How TOXIC are these thoughts to our daily lives, especially those of us who are supposed to be putting our faith and trust in God and God alone? I find that the things that are most difficult to trust God with, are the things that we:
a.) have little to no control over b.) things that we have never seen manifested in our lives or the lives of those around us or c.) because we are imperfect, we have a hard time believing that God would bless us with something so amazing.
But, true faith requires us to walk with the expectation that God knows and wants what is best for us (Jeremiah 29:11-13). And that He will provide us with the desires of our hearts, according to HIS good and perfect will (1 John 5: 14-15).
When I find myself in those moments of doubt, I have to remind myself that there is absolutely nothing in this world that is out of reach. Every bit of joy, peace, love, and purpose that exists can be mine. This goes for all of us. I have a number of goals that I am currently seeking God’s will for. And there are times that cause me to wonder if the hiccups in the road of this journey are a sign that it isn’t meant to be, or if it just for the testing of my faith. What I DO know is, the testing of our faith produces patience (James 1:3-4). Patience to wait on God to guide us into His will, which requires us to “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you” Matthew 6:33. Patience for God to produce for us the fruit of our labor. Patience that allows us to enjoy the journey that God is trying to take us on…if only we follow Him. And patience that gives us time to remember, “I am worthy. Flawed, but still worthy!! AND patience and faith to know that when our plans fall through (as they often do), that GOD has something sooo much better in store. Waiting for us to receive it.
Finally, if I am a daughter of the King…doesn’t that automatically make me qualified to receive the blessings that He has for me? Yes, it does. May we straighten our crowns, give our hearts to Him, and remember yes, I am flawed. But I am STILL worthy.