On November 6, I decided that enough was enough! Had I had enough of mourning over a bad breakup? Nope! I finally decided that I was tired of neglecting the importance of TRULY taking care of myself. From the inside out. Tired of NOT nurturing the temple that God loaned me while I spend time on this earth. I no longer felt like MIA! Vibrant, young, energetic, resilient, brilliant, and limitless. Instead, I felt sluggish, unhealthy, and frankly, I didn’t like how my clothes were starting to fit (Vain? Maybe. True? Absolutely!).
Growing up, I was the ‘chubby’ sister. I was never largely overweight or anything like that, but while in undergrad, I began taking my health and fitness VERY serious. I mean, I was a beast if I must say so myself. I had so much discipline. So much will power. I was very strict, while occasionally allowing myself to enjoy the things I liked. Most of my workouts included running. And doing all of this worked for ME. It worked well for my metabolism, the way my body felt inside, weight control, etc. (Plus, I was a late bloomer, so this was during my ‘pre-bloom’ period. So I wasn’t working with quite as much. lol)
Anywhoo, fast forward 5 years. I’m looking at old pictures of myself, and I honestly don’t recognize myself. And don’t get me started on the comparison trap. With social media, if we are not careful, we begin to allow our surroundings, society, our insecurities, and others to define who we should be and how we should look. How dare they, right? *insert dramatic eye roll* I had to stop myself in my tracks and remind myself that not only am I a daughter of THE KING, but my worth is far above rubies (that good ol’ Proverbs 31!) and is not determined by my dress or jean size. As women, we tend to be sooooooooooooooooooo hard on ourselves with the unrealistic expectations that we place on ourselves. Instead, we must work to be the best version of OURselves, but still LOVE OURSELVES WITHOUT THE CONDITIONS. Less “I’ll love my body once I can fit back into a size 4” or whatever that may look like for you. And more “I AM FINE. 😉 I am capable. I AM ENOUGH. I am worthy. I am fearfully and wonderfully made! (That’s Psalm 139:14)
That brings me to the ‘now.’ I had forgotten my “why.” In the past, I’ve tried different ‘diets’ that promised speedy results. But always eventually found myself right back in the same spot. I didn’t want to do that again. My ‘why’ was often for vain or superficial reasons. I believe we ALL need to have a why. A ‘why’ that isn’t superficial, but comes from a place of self-love, care, and the truth of how GOD sees us. 1 Peter 2:9 reminds us that we are a “chosen generation, a royal 👸🏾priesthood, a holy nation, His own SPECIAL people…”😍 You’ll notice that NONE of this has to do with our outer appearance, the dreaded number on the scale…but EVERYTHING to do with who we are, and how God sees us through HIS eyes. The TRUTH of our identity. So, my why is to honor God with everything He has blessed me with.
That includes all spiritual blessings, good health, a sound mind, and the talents I must exercise for His glory. My why is to FEEL GOOD and know that I am treating my body in a way that illustrates LOVE for it, ensures that I do my part to make sure I am around to fulfill HIS purpose in my life for HIS glory. If I continue to feed my body with junk ALL THE TIME…can I really expect it to do what I need it to do in the long-run? Nah. See 1 Corinthians 6:19-20. Yes, the original context is in reference to sexual purity, but I believe that as Christians, we can and should apply this to other ways that we should care for our earthly temple.
So, where was I going to begin? I knew I would need God to guide me and walk with me on this new journey for a lifestyle change. Your girl can eat 😆so this was going to be an adjustment! Lol And I also knew I wanted/needed some accountability partners! I set a personal goal of losing 15 lbs in 90 days because I was the largest I’ve ever been in my adult life. And the fact that I am young, able-bodied (thank God), have no children or anything else holding me back…I wanted to get in the best shape/condition of my life. I chose 90 days because I desire slow, steady, consistent, and permanent changes to be made. Not another ‘quick fix.’
This journey began on November 6. Today is November 21, and I am proud to say that I have lost a total of 3 lbs! 😱That is definitely an accomplishment! 🙂 Because since I have completely eliminated bread and rice from my diet (I just don’t even buy them at this point)…while drinking a ton of water, I feel lighter. AND portion control has become my new BFF. 🙂 I try not to eat because I’m bored. And I try not to eat until I’m about to roll over because I need a nap. lol
Doing this has allowed me to ensure that I get more veggies on that plate! (That doesn’t mean I will never eat rice or bread again, but I can do without it right now). My goal is also to workout 4 days/week.🏃🏾♀️ Which I have been sticking to with the exception of last week when I was under the weather. But, since I only eat out on weekends (or treat myself with a cheat meal or a few delicious, unhealthy snacks), I am able to know exactly what I am putting into my body, and make better choices!! Which is the goal.
The best part about this journey is I am not alone. God is with me (Isaiah 41:10)! I am also in great company with friends and family who have their own goals because they too, have had enough. We encourage one another while holding each other accountable. Life is a journey, not a destination as India Arie so beautifully puts it! And when we embrace one another in this way, there is nothing that we can’t do. May we all continue striving to be the best version of ourselves!
What have YOU had enough of?